Cranky Old Girl

I am just not in the best of mood today. Maybe it's the scheduled monthly period. Maybe it's not. hahaha.. Period aside.. I think mainly it came from the feeling of loneliness. Ladies and gentlemen, yes.. it sucks.. For those of you who hv not experienced it.. i highly recommend it for a whole day, or a few days of misery, depending on the level of it. I am currenlty surrounded by people.. for like, a short while.. 2/3 days or so je lagi... after that, alone!!! seriously, it's depressing. Cos these ppl i know are either moving out this very minute or are packing to move out. For fuck's sake it's the summer holiday! everyone's off to whereverland..

Me? well, if not for the 3 1/2 freaking years in uitm, i know for a fact that at this moment, i will not be in my room wallowing in loneliness but in fact, am on a plane back to KL. Nak grad awal sikit punye pasal.. i am staying here, taking 4 freaking classes thruout the whole entire summer. u hv nooo idea how hard it is. If only a diploma in uitm took only 2 years like normal colleges instead of 3 freaking years! kene extend plak tu.. adoi...For 3 whole months, while everyone else is basking in the sun, walking along the beach or Bintang walk, i am forced to wake up everyday, take my heavy books, put on my flipflops, and walk to... CLASS!! dahla takde kawan already to just lepak2 outside.. huhuhuhu... I will be moving to the other apartment somewhere in early June, maybe adelah ramai sikit org over there but till then.. what am i supposed to do? who am i supposed to bug everyday? who am i supposed to drag out of their room to come n sit with me outside? It's just soooo sad thinking abt it.. i had to watch the movie Eurotrip to cheer myself up.. which, btw, is soo funny! hehehehe..

so anyway, i know some of u who really knows me mite wonder what's the big deal abt it? i am, after all the only child.. and doing stuff alone is soo my thing.. shopping, eating at restaurants, watching movies.. i do it all alone without any hint of uncomfortableness (is there such a word?? hahaha)... but ppl.. that's different.. that's like at home... where best friends are just a phone call away, mama n ayah are just a few office blocks away, or whatever.. n i hv a car to drive around.. here, i dont even hv a freaking license! okay yeah, i know that's my fault entirely cos i hv no problem in getting a car... if only i could just wake up early n get one of my friends to drive me to the DMV... but like, hellooo.. why are the public transportations so screwed up?? the last bus is at 5 something! like, ape tuuuu????

OMG.. i sound like a cranky old lady nearing, or waaaayy past menopause! eeerrrkk!! I'm just rambling on and on here... trying to distract myself fr this major pain we call loneliness.. sucks, ppl! seriously, sucks as hell!!! well ok.. will now watch napoleon dynamite pulak.. i need all the temporary cheerfulness i can get.. so excuse me..