of being sorry n hungry

So there's this guy i know who's like this 50 yr old huuuggee african american (trying to be PC here) He's like, a father to everyone here cos he's just so nice and caring and really helpful. He used to sit n watch sex n the city, laguna beach, and all the girly stuff with me on my late shifts (when i could actually watch tv at work) and he'd always always come by to say hi n ask how im doing everytime he gets in fr class or abt to leave for one. and when u need someone to talk to, u could always count on him to listen, and give his most honest opinion even though it may not be something that u want to hear. well whatever, the point is, he's this lovely old geezer who we all love.

and so i was on the phone with mr BF just now when he came by to get a drink fr me. n as i got up, he kinda like, did this thing which was something like, "oh my! i cant look at u cos ure just absolutely hot today." so yeah, and of course, I giggled like a schoolgirl (as said by Mr BF) because it's not everyday u get someone telling u (verbally or so) that ure just oh so hot, even though it's coming fr a 50 yr old dude (u mite think it's like so perverted n sick for an old man, but oh seriously if u know him, u wudnt think that) who quite often tells me that Im a pretty lady. but yeah. i dunno abt u girl but like, if my bf tells me everytime, n tries his hardest to convince me that he does think im the hottest little thing (if la kan, IFFFFF he thinks so), n yada yada yada.. it's just hard to actually acknowledge it. like, yeah it's of course really nice to hear, n it does make me happy to hear it but also, there's part of me that will always gonna be thinking like, "oh well he's my bf, he HAS to say that kan!" like, he's just prolly being biased cos he's in love with me n even if im all comot n shit, he'd still think im just hot (which, im not saying he does, but im just saying la kan IFFF..).

omg im rambling. so yeah. mr BF had to hear the whole conversation between me n this lovely old dude who's just being all mengada when im actually not even dressed like, whoaa. so yeah. n of course, mr BF wasnt too pleased abt it. like, yeah.. understandable. who the heck likes to hear another person flirts (which i dont think it was that) with his/her gf/bf kan? omg seriously i dunno the whole point to this post. i really dont. i just want to say sorry i guess, for being all giggly like a freaking schoolgirl who has never seen a guy before. and seriously oh dear BF, i wanna thank u for not making this a huge deal cos yeah, i was all giggly n happy (which, i know u dont mind, but i guess it's inappropriate of me). n i dont think that was pleasant for a bf to hear. im sorry u had to hear all that. oh gaawwddd, the point is :im just so blaaarddyy sorry. n yeah. i guess im being all drama queen abt this. but yeah,i really just dont want to spoil the fun streak y'know. it's been going well.

and oh, ya ampun. its been 4 days since i started fasting here. n yeaarrppp we, in the states side actually started fasting before Malaysia. totally. it has been absolutely hard. ive been sooo tired n practically lifeless. just floating around waiting for that time of the day where i actually get to go home, bersila nicely in front of the tv n just eat like a pig. n theeennn sleep! yes, i am a pig. a real piggy one at that. my crazy schedule plus the endless exams n all totally isnt helping. like, rite now, im seriously supposed to be studying because i hv this major exam 2moro which i dont think of it as major anymore as there hv been too many of them major ones! but then, because im fasting, n i havent had a wink since 9 am, n im really low on sugar, im hungry n thirsty n what not, i just cant study. and so for the past 6 hours at work ive just been doing absolutely nothing. i guess the 1st week is the hardest since the body is still doing some adjusting. my fren said that he thinks itd be easier for me to fast here since it's not that hot but somehow i really dont think thats the case. i think it's easier back in KL because almost everyone else is fasting. n i get this crazy ramadhan vibe where id get so excited to just go to the pasar ramadhan n get every single thing that looks crazy yummy and it wud only be like, 30 bucks the most. ahhhh.. bless all them crazy ppl selling crazy yummy food. so yeah. plus id get excited for raya to well, raya la. not that raya has been fab like back in the kiddie days but yeah, at least im done with fasting. and id get to tempah baju raya as well. so yeah. it's just nicer in kl. i guess everything's just nicer, because, well it's home. *sigh*

and nowwwww... after so much blabberinggg.. what im trying to say issssss... SELAMAT BERPUASA. May u hv a great Ramadhan full of blessings, serenity, and all the good things.