.which one.

It's decision time.
Trying to pick the easier option.
1- Going for what I want
2- Ignoring what I want just because it's "unavailable"

A little while back I asked "Why do I always have to back down? Who's backing down for me?"
Deep inside, I know why.
I want that clear conscience.
Knowing I do the right thing.
But really, it's about time I put myself first right?
So yeah, which is the easier option?

At this moment, all I could think about is "I want what I want. I don't wanna think about consequences. I don't wanna do the whole 'What ifs'."
But I don't know if  going for what I want is easier than ignoring it.
Both seems to be quite hard right now.
Urgh. Bloody internal conflicts.